Whoops, never mind.

Never mind, changed it again. Actually, I've changed it twice since that post, and may continue changing it, so I'm just gonna let you keep updating yourself as to what the name is.

~Kenyn

Slight change.

I have changed my wordpress name from Eternal Aspirations. It now has less of a name, and more of a tagline. It is now: "A Door Into My Mind... Enter at your own Risk." It still has the same web address though.

Just an update.

depressed...

The other day I was having a conversation with a guy friend of mine and it got me thinking. Lately I've been feeling really down because of the crap that is my life, and I guess I let my mask falter because he looked at me for a minute and his expression got all worried. He asked me if I was O.K., and my immediate thought was "lie. Tell him you're fine. Tell him you're just tired." But for some reason I didn't. Instead I replied with "I'm alive. That's what matters." He said "being alive isn't all that matters, what about happiness? Happiness is part of life." Me: "Happiness is only a passing privilege." (I'm going to refer to my guy friend as J.) J.: "Look, I can tell that you're really depressed, and-" (I and one of my girl friends had been talking about a guy that I have really strong feelings for but said guy doesn't care about me.) "-if this is about some guy, then if he doesn't and won't care about you no matter what, then he's not right for you and isn't worth it." (Leave it to him to think that I'm friggin' depressed over a guy.) Me: "This isn't just my guy problems. I am actually a little deeper than that." J.: "Just be happy, O.K.? What's the point of living if you can't be happy?" THAT caught my attention. I'm sure he didn't mean to phrase it quite like that, but it made me think. What IS the point of living if I have no hope of happiness? Not that I think that I could ever take my own life, but it sure is an interesting idea... hmmm...

Random Note: Not Who I Want To Be

What do you do when you realize that you’re the kind of girl you’ve always hated? You know, the girl who has the looks, the voice, all the guys, everyone wants to be her, and the girls who are a little bit younger all idolize her? I’m not trying to be conceited, I’m just making an observation. If I were a cheerleader, I would be the popular girl every body secretly hates. How could I subconsciously become someone I have always hated? I now understand how my friend Josh must feel, he’s one of those guys that has an absolutely gorgeous face and all the girls fall head over heals for him. You never know if they like you as a friend or something more, it’s really hard to find a good friend of the opposite sex that only wants to be friends. I realized this about myself when I was thinking about my current crush. I like him very much but he doesn’t care for me in the least, and as I was contemplating this, the thought went through my head that I could have nearly any guy, except for the one that I really want. As soon as that thought went through my head, I realized the way-more-popular-than-I-should-be, over-rated, cheerleader type that I must come off as, and I’m not so sure that I’m O.K. with that image. I think I would rather lick a cactus.

Also good, but... weird...

The first one is Showbread with Mouth Like a Magazine, these guys are mostly here to give a show, but I like their music too.
The second one is Family Force five with Kountry Gentlemen.
The third is also FF5 with love addict. If you didn't think these guys were weird already, you will. I love them anyway.
The fourth one is FF5 with what I think is called Whatcha Gonna Do With It. I haven't heard this one before, so if any one knows if this is a new song or an old one, that would be appreciated.

Hehe, good stuff.

The first video is Demon Hunter with Undying.
The second is Scar Symmetry with The Illusionist.
And the third one is Demon Hunter again with Not Ready to Die.

This is one of my favorite types of music. Yes, I'm a bit of a head banger. If you are too, then check these bands out, they're awesome!

New wordpress post.

I have put up a new poem on my wordpress, it is a pro-life poem. If you will check it out and possibly comment on it, that would be appreciated.

Wordpress

I also have a wordpress (kenyn.wordpress.com), though, I'm pretty sure that I've mentioned that somewhere else.... Any way, it has the same name as this except it has an extra line (Eternal Aspirations; Trying, but still only human). Another wordpress you should check out is my brother's, wakingpain.wordpress.com, he has a way with words that I could only wish to ever have, if you want something profound that makes you think, look him up. Another is my sister's, notwhatyousee.wordpress.com, also more profound than I, not quite to the level of my brother though. I'm not sure why I even made this blog since all of my stuff is on my wordpress, but I guess this way I can turn more people onto it. Any way, I have a particular post on my wordpress that I would like people to look at, it's called, "Happily Ever After?"... You'd have to read it, I think it's a valid point. If you have a wordpress and you're O.K. with me looking at it, I'd love to if you will post the name of it here.

Rock on, rock out, and keep rockin' for Jesus!

Eternal Aspirations

Have you ever noticed that every time you set a goal you work toward it with everything you have and when you finally reach it you feel a great since of accomplishment but soon find a new goal to strive for?

Well the Bible says that we are to conform to the image of God and strive to become more like Him. But it also states that ” for all have fallen short of the glory of God.” Well then, how are we to become like Him? Here’s a hint: we can’t. But we can obey Him and try to please Him in everything we do, no, we won’t always get it right, but that’s why He’s God and we’re not. That’s why I call it eternal aspirations, I am, just as it says, eternally trying to aspire to something greater than myself. That’s also why I’m “trying, but still only human.” I am aspiring to something greater than human, but even though I know I can never reach my goal of righteousness, I won’t give up and so my aspirations are eternal. Good luck with your own aspirations!

Currently reaching for Heaven,

-Kenyn